Once Upon A Time:

When I was younger, my favorite things to do were to go to Grandma's House, play dress up, build forts outside on the slides and play houses, watch Disney Fairytales, and play with dolls, playing out my perfect fairytale.

I had all these movies memorized. When a new one would come out, my Grandpa would take me, and I would take the aspects I liked most out of each one and apply it to my dolls lives.

I wanted Cinderella's Fairy God Mother.
I wanted Prince Phillip and Prince Eric searching for me like they searched for Sleeping Beauty and Ariel.
I wanted Belle's library.
I wanted Snow White's selflessness.
I wanted Jasmine's independence.
But most importantly: I wanted Meg's sass. (You really shouldn't be surprised. And I know Hercules isn't a "fairytale" but it's still my favorite.)

But then I started growing up. Playing games like Truth or Dare or painting my nails with friends were more fun than sitting on the floor with Barbies acting out scenarios I wanted to happen to me. I eventually forgot about them. They got put in storage (and honestly should be given to thrift stores or the trash) and I haven't thought about the stories I used to act out in years...

But me wanting a fairytale has never left my mind.

I don't have the best experiences in my life: I've expressed previously how hard the past few months have been on me. And they keep getting so much harder and harder. I feel like I keep losing amazing things I could have had if I had worked harder or if I had wanted less. It always seems like I almost have something... then I don't anymore. I go into this hate spiral that I really shouldn't - and I keep thinking I don't deserve anything good, which is the opposite of good.

Plenty of good things happen to me daily. I have great friends who keep my spirits up and help me forget the pain that I think about before I go to sleep at night.



Once upon a time, there was a girl named Samantha. She had two good people raise her, they just weren't the best for each other, and they weren't the best parents. Samantha always dreamed of being a princess, and having a family that loved her more than anything. She wanted to feel like her palace was a home, and not just an address.

And one day, with the right man, it will be. I just need to learn from some lessons first.