- My favorite Disney movie is Hercules!
- When I was younger, I was obsessed with Greek and Roman Mythology. This came in handy my 9th year of schooling when there was a section in English where we were studying Mythology, and I'm certain that is when I fell in love with the subject "English".
- If I ever had to sing a song set, the songs would be: "I'm Yours" by Jason Mraz, "The Show" by Lenka, "Stupid Cupid" by Connie Francis, "Yellow" by Coldplay, "Perth" by Bon Iver, "Skinny Love" by Bon Iver, and "I Won't Say I'm In Love" from Hercules. Most song sets aren't seven songs long, but whatever. I'd make it a medley or something.
- I'm obsessed with a Disney Medley by the UMass Doo Wop Shop right now. Oh, my goodness. You have NO idea. I seriously die every time I listen to it. It reminds me why I love listening to acapella groups so much.
- I'm obsessed with architecture and interior design. One day, I hope I'm blessed with a nice life style to where I can make my home comfortable and designed the way I would like it to be. But this probably won't be for many many many many years. I may never live to see this time, and that's alright. I'm pretty self sufficient. I'll just look at interior design blogs the rest of my life if I have to.
- I really like history. At one point, I wanted to be a historian with my focus in WW2 and The Holocaust. I'm so interested in those two subjects, my short time as a history major, that was my focus. Or was going to be. Whatever.
- Doorbells freak me out. It's not the purpose or anything. It's really only when people hit the doorbell repeatedly. Like - dingdingdingdingdingdinggiorewhgorieh. Summer 2011, someone broke into my house while I was home alone, and to make sure nobody was home, they were ringing the doorbell like that. And because I don't answer the door unless I know the person at the door, I didn't answer it, so they broke my door. On instinct, I chased after them. Out of my house. Down the street. To their getaway car. I realized about 2 minutes later how stupid that was, because they could have had weapons. I could've died. I don't think I've cried so hard in my life. But... yeah... doorbells. They scare me.
- I have an unhealthy obsession with high fashion models. I follow about 200 model blogs on tumblr. I don't know why I like model editorials and print work, but I do. I hate fashion walks. I don't really pay attention to the brands. I just love print work and how they pose and all the crazy ideas people get for photo shoots.
- I'm PISSED I chopped all my hair off.
- I love reading. I'm currently reading the A Song of Ice and Fire series. This series is about 5000 pages long right now, and completely amazing. I'm so glad it's not done yet, because it gives me time to keep reading and catch up before it's done.
- ASOIAF are the books that the HBO series "Game of Thrones" is based off.
- I will forever be obsessed with "True Blood", another premium cable gift.
- I wish I could live in Bon Temps some days, just so at night I could see Alexander Skarsgard.
- Bon Temps is fictional. :(
- I have come to realize that I have really bad anxiety.
- I love roller coasters.
- My best friend is getting married in 10 days.
- My best friend is like my sister, and I love her more than she'll ever know.
Tuesday, May 22, 2012
I like this. I like that. I like you. I like me.
I was bored one day, so I blogged about a whole bunch of things I liked and were my favorites. I don't know if it was a hit or not with my readers, I don't really mind knowing or not. But I have more to list!
In order to find love, you need to love yourself.
In an uplifting mood, I find myself wanting to write, and help uplift others. It's a chain reaction. Someone makes you feel good and uplifted, and now you want to pour out your feelings to make someone else feel uplifted and joyful.
Today, I plan on writing something that has been on my mind for a while, and I haven't been able to word it correctly in my head. I could never start this post, and now I have the inspiration that I need.
With so many people I know getting married, and even just getting into relationships, it's easy for a single girl to be jealous. One of our purposes is to fall in love and have children, and it is so appealing to have someone who loves you and cares about you, and only feels that way towards you. Naturally, any one of us, as humans, would be jealous. But how can you be ready to love someone if you don't know how to love? Or better yet - How can you be ready to love someone if you don't love yourself? Loving yourself should be easy, right? Or has society made us all think that loving yourself is vain and that we are not supposed to?
Dr. Brent Barlow, a professor who taught at Brigham Young University, had all of his students write a love letter to themselves. He told them to list things they love about themselves, and things they want to work on because they love themselves and want to make themselves the best that they can be. Our Heavenly Father loves us! We should love us, too! So here it goes: A love letter to myself.
Dear Samantha,
You beautiful brown eyed girl, you have come so far from the girl you used to be. I know that things have been hard, but they will and are getting better. I know. You used to hate yourself. You didn't feel like you deserved anything. You didn't feel like you deserved friends, family, money, an education, or someone who loved you because of how you looked. I'm not going to sugar coat this. You, most of the time, we not attractive or appealing to look at. Sure, not all of this was your fault. There wasn't anyone helping you try to look your best. You didn't know how to use a curling iron, much less hair products and make up. Your eye brows were hairy, and you, sadly, weren't allowed to rid away the unwanted hair. But there's pictures of you when you would smile, and you can see the potential underneath all the things you couldn't control.
When I look at you now, I can see how beautiful your eyes are, and I remember how you used to think that they were boring and ugly. Your eyes smile, even when you want to cry. They're the windows to your soul, and (in my opinion) you have a beautiful, kind soul. You don't just care about the wonderful people in your life, but you deeply care about every one of them.
You're such a hard worker, and you have an eye for perfection, this is definitely your inner Virgo coming out, and it's helping you succeed in your doings! In fact, I know for a fact that you've read over this note several times, just looking for grammatical errors. ;)
And, while I know that the paragraph above this wasn't truly a paragraph, it's time to move on. When you're all alone, and you're dancing around, singing, and doing things you'd never want the world to watch you do, I know that you're truly happy when you're doing it. Maybe because you're picturing a life in your dreams where you could do that for a living? I know that in your heart, you're making the right choices, choosing to want to be a social worker, but I know it's hard when most your life, you spent it "knowing" you would be a performer someday. But you can always be a performer for the mirror, for your friends, for the people in your life. You can entertain them at certain activities that are meant for the talents you have in the arts.
You are so sweet, caring, and giving to the people you care about. You have so much love to give them! And while sometimes you enjoy your solitude, you love being with your friends, and helping them in only ways you can. I know you love making them laugh and smile. I know that you do everything you can for them, and I'm sure they're grateful.
One day, everything is going to fall into place. It's going to be everything that you dreamed and more. I know that you want to be happy. I know that you want to raise a family. I know that the Lord won't deny you of that, and has a way for you. Just be patient, something you can be, and at the same time, can't be. Someday, you'll look back on your jealousy (Yes, you're jealous. Don't even lie.) and think you're so silly, and that your life is perfect for you, and if you were to have someone else's life, you couldn't be as happy as them.
When you look back on this, remember the smile that you put on your face as YOU wrote it. The smile that you caused because you do love yourself, and know that many other friends love all this about yourself, too. Remember how you're not the only one to think this. That so many of your friends have called you sweet, and caring. That they have called you a hard worker. That boys have told you that your eyes are amazing and not plain and boring like you let yourself believe sometimes. I know you're going to give the world to someone. Someday you'll believe me. So don't be sad that Mr. Right Now isn't around. Don't be afraid to go out into the world and share your talents, smile, and positive attitude with everyone you meet.
I love you. So many people love you. Your Heavenly Father loves you. Someday, someone will love you more than you could ever imagine someone loving somebody. Don't worry. It will happen.
Today, I plan on writing something that has been on my mind for a while, and I haven't been able to word it correctly in my head. I could never start this post, and now I have the inspiration that I need.
With so many people I know getting married, and even just getting into relationships, it's easy for a single girl to be jealous. One of our purposes is to fall in love and have children, and it is so appealing to have someone who loves you and cares about you, and only feels that way towards you. Naturally, any one of us, as humans, would be jealous. But how can you be ready to love someone if you don't know how to love? Or better yet - How can you be ready to love someone if you don't love yourself? Loving yourself should be easy, right? Or has society made us all think that loving yourself is vain and that we are not supposed to?
Dr. Brent Barlow, a professor who taught at Brigham Young University, had all of his students write a love letter to themselves. He told them to list things they love about themselves, and things they want to work on because they love themselves and want to make themselves the best that they can be. Our Heavenly Father loves us! We should love us, too! So here it goes: A love letter to myself.
Dear Samantha,
You beautiful brown eyed girl, you have come so far from the girl you used to be. I know that things have been hard, but they will and are getting better. I know. You used to hate yourself. You didn't feel like you deserved anything. You didn't feel like you deserved friends, family, money, an education, or someone who loved you because of how you looked. I'm not going to sugar coat this. You, most of the time, we not attractive or appealing to look at. Sure, not all of this was your fault. There wasn't anyone helping you try to look your best. You didn't know how to use a curling iron, much less hair products and make up. Your eye brows were hairy, and you, sadly, weren't allowed to rid away the unwanted hair. But there's pictures of you when you would smile, and you can see the potential underneath all the things you couldn't control.
When I look at you now, I can see how beautiful your eyes are, and I remember how you used to think that they were boring and ugly. Your eyes smile, even when you want to cry. They're the windows to your soul, and (in my opinion) you have a beautiful, kind soul. You don't just care about the wonderful people in your life, but you deeply care about every one of them.
You're such a hard worker, and you have an eye for perfection, this is definitely your inner Virgo coming out, and it's helping you succeed in your doings! In fact, I know for a fact that you've read over this note several times, just looking for grammatical errors. ;)
And, while I know that the paragraph above this wasn't truly a paragraph, it's time to move on. When you're all alone, and you're dancing around, singing, and doing things you'd never want the world to watch you do, I know that you're truly happy when you're doing it. Maybe because you're picturing a life in your dreams where you could do that for a living? I know that in your heart, you're making the right choices, choosing to want to be a social worker, but I know it's hard when most your life, you spent it "knowing" you would be a performer someday. But you can always be a performer for the mirror, for your friends, for the people in your life. You can entertain them at certain activities that are meant for the talents you have in the arts.
You are so sweet, caring, and giving to the people you care about. You have so much love to give them! And while sometimes you enjoy your solitude, you love being with your friends, and helping them in only ways you can. I know you love making them laugh and smile. I know that you do everything you can for them, and I'm sure they're grateful.
One day, everything is going to fall into place. It's going to be everything that you dreamed and more. I know that you want to be happy. I know that you want to raise a family. I know that the Lord won't deny you of that, and has a way for you. Just be patient, something you can be, and at the same time, can't be. Someday, you'll look back on your jealousy (Yes, you're jealous. Don't even lie.) and think you're so silly, and that your life is perfect for you, and if you were to have someone else's life, you couldn't be as happy as them.
When you look back on this, remember the smile that you put on your face as YOU wrote it. The smile that you caused because you do love yourself, and know that many other friends love all this about yourself, too. Remember how you're not the only one to think this. That so many of your friends have called you sweet, and caring. That they have called you a hard worker. That boys have told you that your eyes are amazing and not plain and boring like you let yourself believe sometimes. I know you're going to give the world to someone. Someday you'll believe me. So don't be sad that Mr. Right Now isn't around. Don't be afraid to go out into the world and share your talents, smile, and positive attitude with everyone you meet.
I love you. So many people love you. Your Heavenly Father loves you. Someday, someone will love you more than you could ever imagine someone loving somebody. Don't worry. It will happen.
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