Pencil versus Pen.

Have you ever just sat down and thought about how lucky you are? I was asked to tell someone about the worst day of my life. I tried to think about it. I could tell you a story about how my boyfriend broke up with me, or one day when my parents yelled at me. I could tell you stories from when I was bullied and didn't have anyone to talk to, but if those are my worst days, I'm extremely lucky. I live in America. I have 22 dollars in cash in my wallet, and I have cards on top of that. I have a kitchen full of food. Sure, it may lack sometimes, (most the time) but it's not like I don't even have money to go out an buy food. I'm luckier than so many people in this world. I'm so lucky to have a home with running water, electricity, a family that loves me, transportation, my health, healthcare, and a college education. A lot of people don't get that.

So, pencil versus pen. Why this? Well, last tuesday, I had this discussion. You can erase pencil. You can erase your mistakes, but it smears, it smudges, and you can't read it. You can't erase pen, but it doesn't smudge easily, and you can always read it. I'm a pen fan. But it also explains how I think a lot of things through. I don't forgive myself easily. I don't forget easily. I can't just forget what someone has done to me. I never forget what I do to someone. I can always read what has happened in my life. I remember everything. It's one of my worst traits. I wish I could be like a pencil and just erase some of the memories away. I wish I didn't remember a lot of things. But I can't.